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26 December 2009 @ 01:47 am
Finals went well! I made an 86 on my Tech Theatre final, I'll post the other grades when I find out. I've been out of school since the 18th of December and it has been very nice. Baked cookies with my step mom, a long time tradition in the family. Had a nice and quiet holiday get together with friends on the 19th. On the 23rd I made pierogis with a long time family friend and the 24th I enjoyed a nice Christmas eve party.

And then Santa came...

On Christmas I opened presents early in the morning with the dad and step mom. Got a couple of maps (always much needed), a new cook book, a shirt, a Swiss army knife, and a digital camera. Then we went over to my grandmother's house and played Chinese Gift Exchange, by far the best Christmas game in the world, I racked up a new platter and a fun little puzzle. By 1:00 in the afternoon, I was off to my mommy's house for the rest of the day. From her I got 4 wonderful cookbooks, a topaz and white gold ring, a cooking calender, 2 bind runes (one for love, one for peace and happiness), a Cowon S9 MP3 player, 3 things of nail polish, a blanket, 2 sets of velour running clothes, Godiva chocolate, and probably a bunch of other stuff that is slipping my mind. Yeah, mommy goes all out for Christmas. We had a nice lunch that involved cured meats, olives, deviled eggs, cheese, and crackers. And dinner was superb although a bit fattening. We had a baked duck, green beans with pecans and bacon, sunchokes, and tomatoes. Dessert was freshly cut star fruit and blood oranges. Oh, and lots and lots of chocolate. The night was very enjoyable, we talked and drank tea and just spent some quality time together.

Overall the holidays were a success although I am very glad they are almost over.
 
 
Current Mood: contentcontent
 
 
gummybear365
14 December 2009 @ 09:27 pm
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gummybear365
07 December 2009 @ 05:57 pm
Finals are next week and I'm scared. Tech Theatre Final is on Monday and I have no idea what to expect for it. My calculus final is on Tuesday but we still have a major test on this coming Wednesday. Economics is on Wednesday and our review is an average of 8 hours long. And I have English on Thursday, which involves an essay over the play Hamlet, I hate that play.

I'm throwing a Holiday Party (Hell yes, a pagan throwing a holiday party) on December 19th and I am in no way prepared for that, I need to go out and get food stuff for it.

Christmas is coming up and I don't have any presents yet! Nor do I have the money to buy them!

This whole life thing always gets hard around the holidays, I'm so ready for January.
 
 
Current Mood: stressedstressed
 
 
gummybear365
27 November 2009 @ 12:03 pm
Other than my earlier post today, I haven't blogged since early June (whoops). Figured I would make a little blog update on those few months:
*I worked all summer, Tuesdays were my one day off. I worked 10 hours a day 4 days a week, and 5 hours on Saturday and Sunday. I barely saw my family and friends, not to mention my boyfriend at the time, Ryan. Mommy took Tuesdays off so we had some time together, sometimes we would go shopping and other times we would relax at home. On the days I saw Ryan we would usually go shopping at the mall and go out to eat.
* 3 weeks before the end of summer vacation, Ryan bought me a beautiful sapphire, diamond, and white gold ring. On the first day of school, he decided that he hasn't really loved me for 2 out of the 3 years we had been dating and broke up with me. In my desperation to get out of classes with him, I dropped my Religions of the World class and got into Beginners Calculus. A big jump but I don't regret it in the slightest.
* I got accepted into ACC's Culinary Program.
* I got my braces off!!!! Yup, eating gummy bears like crazy.
* Slowly but surely I'm getting deeper in my studies of Asatru, I'm currently only praying to Frigg and Odin but hopefully within the next year I'll be studying the others as well.

I've been doing well in school this year, only class that's been giving me trouble is Calculus (go figure). I promise to try to blog more often, cause 25 weeks without blogging is a little silly.
 
 
Current Mood: reflective
 
 
gummybear365
27 November 2009 @ 11:48 am
After 361 days, my brother finally came home from Australia to visit. You never realize how much you love someone until they leave for an extended amount of time. The day after his return, the family went out for breakfast and I got to listen to all of his stories about penguins, work, and his travel. It was so wonderful seeing him again, to have him actually sit next to me to talk and eat. This past Wednesday I picked him up and went to the mall to pick out a ring. Since I was a little girl, I have had this stuffed cardinal that my brother gave me, and no matter what gifts he would give me around the holidays, that cardinal was always my favorite. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I need a bit of a more "grown up" gift that reminded me of my brother and I decided I wanted a ring. So on Wednesday, we went and found one. It's nothing too fancy, a sterling silver band with a marquise cut sapphire, but it is a ring, a ring that my big brother bought me so I will always have something with me to remind me of him. After the ring shopping and watching my brother eat 3 pretzels at the mall, we went to a movie theater to watch 2012. Summed up, 2012 involves a bunch of special effects guys with a big budget and the mission of "destroy the world and make it look awesome". It apparently takes 2 and a half hours to destroy the world but damn, it looked awesome. Wednesday was one of the best days I've had in awhile, it was so great to catch up with my brother, this guy I've looked up to my whole life but have only gotten close to him in the past couple of years. It was great to be able to sit in the mall food court and talk about the dates I've been on, the break up I've gone through, and just to let my brother know what is going on in my life. He leaves on the 4th of December and it will be another 6 months until I see him again but I trust we'll be able to pick up where we left off.
 
 
Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
 
 
 
gummybear365
01 June 2009 @ 08:12 pm
I really dislike them. I'm confident about my Business final and History final but I'm pretty sure I bombed my English final. Crazy woman gave me 15 pictures and to metaphorically match them to characters we have talked about this whole year. I had no idea what to put. I have Algebra 2 and Spanish 3 tomorrow, and Wednesday I get to deal with Bowling (it's a P.E credit!) and Chemistry. Bleh. I'm pretty sure I've gained like 5 pounds this week, just studying for finals. Stress eating is a downfall.
 
 
gummybear365
01 June 2009 @ 08:05 pm
It's the first day of the month. If you could have one wish come true this month, what would it be?
If I could have one wish come true, I would wish for a successful life filled with love from family, friends, and the one I love. If it was only for the month, I would wish for good grades on my final exams, and a safe summer.
 
 
gummybear365
I am most certainly the type of person who seeks attention. I love the spotlight, I love having the floor, and I love talking, but if it is the wrong attention, I make sure to get out of it pretty quickly. With friends and family, I'm the extrovert of the group, laughing and talking and bringing out the social side in lots of different people. When I'm in an uncomfortable situation or with people I'm not fond of, I stay quiet and keep as much of the attention away from me as I can. I'm not really shy, I just get a little quiet in an awkward environment. I'm sure we all do, it's just more noticeable with me because usually I'm the person that brings the party. My teachers love that about me, I'll spark up discussions, fire up a debate, and get the whole class going within five minutes. However, my Spanish teacher came up talking about how all of my teachers were saying how loud and exuberant I was while in his class, I will only talk when called upon. The reason is simple, I only know one person in that whole classroom.
But for the most part, I love when people notice me.
 
 
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
 
 
gummybear365
21 May 2009 @ 10:59 pm
I keep having the same dream return, at one time I would have welcomed it but at the moment, it just frustrates me.

I'm 23, graduated from Culinary school, living in a condo with two cats and Ryan, and working as a manager at a restaurant. Even though I'm a manager, I'm working on the business plan for my catering business. Ryan comes into the room, sliding next to me on the couch, and tells me that he is going for a three month vacation to Europe. I stop working on my business plan and find out why he's going (just because) and where he's going (all over with a drop in Spain to ship me some saffron, Manchego, and Jamon Iberico). And we laugh and talk about it. He asks me what else I want  and I jokingly remark "Bring me back the necklace of the Brisings". He laughs, kisses me on the forehead and replies "You deserve something all the more beautiful than Freya's desire but if that is what you want, and if I find it, it will be yours".

He left the next week and sent me lots of postcards and emails and the 3 month period seemed to drag on forever.

When he returns, he comes home, gives me a long kiss, pets the cats and unpacks. We order in Thai food to talk about everything that happened and we settle on to the couch, cat on each arm of the couch, and talk into the night. Finally, he pulls out a little box and announces "As hard as I searched, and the many people I found, I never found the Necklace of the Brisings for you. I did however, find you this, and I feel it is more suiting." I open it up and it's a ring, a beautiful diamond ring. He gives me a kiss and wipes away my tears as he proposes, and then I wake up screaming.


For so long, that was what I wanted, I wanted to marry this guy, flaws and all. But two months ago when he told me that he didn't want a relationship even though he didn't break up with me, I started pushing myself away, trying really hard to fall out of love with this guy I've been in love with for three years. Then these dreams started flooding into my sleep cycle, scaring the crap out of me, making me cry because I know deep down it will never happen, and pissing me off. I guess deep down I still want this, hell, even on the surface I still want this, but I'm trying really hard to forget it all, start over, with that "I think you're cute and I have a crush on you" attitude. This dream isn't helping and I have it every night, sometimes twice a night, and I keep having hope and pulling myself out of it, this is getting tiring.
 
 
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
 
 
gummybear365
18 May 2009 @ 09:41 pm
So, my 17th birthday was last Friday and it was a lot better than my Sweet 16. I didn't have to worry about finding that dress for the family party, or starving myself to look decent at the swim party, I just put on a nice black skirt and top, threw on my heels, and drove to school in my early birthday present from my mommy, my 2006 Kia Spectra. At school, not much happened, it was a pretty easy and laid back day. I didn't mind in the least bit. Ryan and I went and got movies after school: Yes Man and Hancock, and headed home where the dad and stepmother were already waiting. I opened presents from them and got a tool kit for my car including but not limiting to a monkey wrench, a can of WD40, two screwdrivers, and a flare. I also got a fire extinguisher for the car and a can of Fix-a-Flat. I got a book on cheese I had been wanting, The Cheese Lover's Companion. And the last box was a circle saw and electric drill. However, inside of the box was a beautiful Coach Bag that my dad won at a raffle, retail price of $460.

And then I changed into pajama pants and a tank top.

After presents we ordered Thai food for pick up from my favorite Thai restaurant, Ryan and I curled on the couch with the parents in their Lazy Boys and watched both movies. Hancock was my favorite, but I cried. And by the time I was crying, my step mom had gone to bed so it was Ryan and Dad, two men, so I got laughed at.

Over all, it was a great birthday, nothing fancy, but amazing nonetheless.